what i mean when i say “i can’t do that” - the depression edition
- i am unable to do that
- i don’t have the energy to do that
- i cannot wrap my head around what you’re asking me to do
- there is too much in my head right now
- i can not do that
what people hear:
- i am unwilling to do that
- i am being stubborn for no reason
- i am being dramatic
- i am lazy
- i need you to repeat that only louder
- i need a push
- i don’t want to do that
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This applies to PTSD as well (and bipolar and chronic illness…. Yeah you get the point)
Before you get emotionally invested in me, just know that I’m fucking crazy and I’ll probably say some asshole-ish things and then cry when you get mad at me and I have emotional breakdowns all of the time.
I never used to have (or at least remember) dreams. Now I have really vivid ones almost every night. I’ve noticed that this seems to have started when I first went on medication. Has anyone else on lithium, lamotrigine (the generic of Lamictal), and/or fluoxetine (the generic of Prozac) noticed this?
(I take them for bipolar disorder type 1 and anxiety)
YES. I am on 400mg of Lamotrigine(Lamictal) 600mg of Lithium a day and my dreams are crazy. I have always had a problem with nightmares but since I have started the Lamotrigine, I have had some seriously vivid and weird ones. I haven’t had any change in them since adding the Lithium though. My psychiatrist tried a couple different medications to specifically tone down the dreams/nightmares but they didnt work so I just deal with them. If they’re really bothersome, I would talk to your doctor and see if they think you should try an add-in or maybe a switch to a different medication.
Okay, interesting! Yeah, ‘cause I started with just a low level of lithium and I didn’t experience any changes in my dreams then, but when my doctor added lamotrigine he also had me increase my lithium dose, so I wasn’t sure if it was both or just one affecting my dreams (or either)…
Luckily I don’t mind it too much, it’s just disconcerting. It’s kind of fascinating, really, and although the subject matter is generally pretty dark the dreams somehow don’t scare me a whole lot (having them be intense nightmares sounds awful, though!!), so it’s probably fine.
Huh, 400mg lamotrigine? How is that? I’m titrating my way back up to 200mg lamotrigine and 1200mg lithium (I went off for a while), but I think I’m going to talk to my doctor about increasing the lamotrigine and decreasing the lithium, because the lamotrigine seems to helps more.
I have never noticed any weird dreams with my lamictal, but I have never been on lithium because ever since my first dosage of lamictal my life became 1000x better. But must also confess that I have PTSD and (used to) be prone to night terrors as well as nightmares, but neither the frquency nor severity increased when I was put of lamictal. They actually went down (I think this is because it helped with the depression I was going through). I take 200 twice a day (total 400 mg). It works like a dream. I am on other meds for sleep, but I’ve had insomnia my whole life and my pdoc thinks it’s psycho-somatic given my PTSD. I had less nightmares when the sedatives worked (they don’t currently hence the reason I’m responding at 4 am), but when they did no nightmares, nothing, so I think that pagentstorm is right. Maybe you can go back to your pdoc/GP and ask for a sedative. What worked for me for a very long time is 25 mg of seroquel, which is far FAR below a therapeutic dose, but it would knock me on my ass. And actually they may switch you to seroquel instead of lithium because a) it makes you sleep, and b) it’s used to treat bipolar as well.
The Much Ado About Nothing Twitter account is quietly killin’ it with its dope bios.
I love this SO MUCH except the “bi-polar grey” one. MY DISEASE IS NOT FUNNY.
So I’ve told you before about my livescribe pen which not only records the lecture as i take notes, but also will let me upload my notes onto my computer and onto the web (lecture and all) so I can access it anywhere. It has made grad school so much easier.
I suffer from low concentration due to my bipolar and PTSD and OMG I LOVE THIS THING. Just wanted to pass it on in case it could help anyone else (through this link you get 15% off). I’d try looking at the refurbished pens first. I just bought a 4gb refurbished (I lost my 8gb one b/c I suck) for $80 and I can’t wait until I unearth it from my mess of a house since school started today and I’m scared to not have it for my classes since my concentration is so poor. Maybe I’ll find it today, but then again, maybe not. I CAN’T RISK IT, but lord knows I’m ripping my house apart to find the damn thing.
My grades have gone up SO MUCH because I can go home and listen to the lecture and go over my notes. It’s fucking amazing. I love this thing. (I know I sound like an ad, but good god damn I found something that works - it’s like striking gold.)
I’m fucking tired of seeing jokes made about Bipolar disorder. “I hate having Bipolar disorder, its so awesome!” Seriously? That’s not what being Bipolar is. Just because you’re happy one second and sad the next doesn’t give you the right to say things like “omgeee! I’m so Bipolar!” You wouldn’t be saying that shit if you had it. I have Bipolar disorder and its a fucking nightmare. Being so depressed you’re on the verge of ending it when you bounce right up and get your hopes high. But then in a few weeks, or days, or months, you get slammed back down again. And also getting your hopes up, thinking you’re cured, when its really just hypomania. Do you even fucking know what mania is? Just please, PLEASE, at least TRY to learn a few facts about it before you tell the whole fucking world how “Bipolar” you are. It doesn’t mean you fucking change your mind a lot. It doesn’t mean you’re moody. It doesn’t mean you cry at happy things. Its a fucking chemical imbalance and people with it have a hard enough fucking time without trying to ignore shitheads like people who make shithead comments.
Here’s a master post for information and resources on the topic of Bipolar Disorder
- Bipolar disorder - symptom list
- Help Guide A site containing articles to help understand, help numbers, “tool kits”, and self help.
- Mental Help A site that has basic information, resources, articles, and a list of books that might be helpful.
- Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance
- FacingUs Clubhouse Wellness Tracker, Wellness Book, Crisis Planning, Etc.
- The balanced mind is a website that provides information for parents and family of children with bipolar disorder.
- The black dog institute has some great resources for depression and bipolar disorder.
- Here is a description of mania and hypomania from The black dog institute.
- Here is a webpage that explains hypomania and it’s symptoms.
- Bipolar racing thoughts
- Bipolar Support tumblr
- Bipolar disorder and study
- Bipolar Owl
Just dont be surprised if I haul off and slap the fire shit out of you. If you are my friend that means you know me. You should know I find that offensive.
Although I can see the feebleminded rationale, I do not take kindly to the poor use of a mental disorder as an adjective for the fucking temperature outside.
Please, continue with your desensitizing of such disorders and helping perpetuate some of the stigma behind them.
USE MERCURIAL INSTEAD FFS. IT’S AN APPROPRIATE WORD