what i mean when i say “i can’t do that” - the depression edition
- i am unable to do that
- i don’t have the energy to do that
- i cannot wrap my head around what you’re asking me to do
- there is too much in my head right now
- i can not do that
what people hear:
- i am unwilling to do that
- i am being stubborn for no reason
- i am being dramatic
- i am lazy
- i need you to repeat that only louder
- i need a push
- i don’t want to do that
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This applies to PTSD as well (and bipolar and chronic illness…. Yeah you get the point)
Chronic Illness Energy Cycle
OH LORD THIS^^^^
Day 2 of sleep 2 hours, up 2-3. Rinse and repeat.
Fucked up thing is I saw a new pdoc last week and she gave me fuck all (a “mild sleeping pill” after I told her I needed something like an elephant tranq to knock my ass out). WHY WON’T THEY LISTEN TO ME? Anyway I see her Wednesday and she better fucking listen or I’m holding her hostage until she gives me something heavy duty, because I think by that point I’m going to be delirious with rage.
To everyone out there who has had a day, or days, or years like this, truly congratulations on all of your victories.
I need this taped to my wall.
My grandma just died. Delta told me I’d need some sort of identification that the ADA does NOT require Service Dogs to have. THIS IS BULLSHIT. Hopefully American will be better, I mean I *have* flown with them before.
So I don’t want to depend on my xanax, but it’s been a month now that I’ve been taking 2 mg to sleep and I don’t want to become dependant on it and fuck it maybe a bottle of wine will put me down b/c some cider didn’t and 650 mL of 10% beer didn’t. I DON’T WANT TO BECOME A XANAX ADDICT AND I DON’T WANT IT TO STOP WORKING. I need ot for my bonafide anxiety attacks.
Fuck. I see my new pdoc on the 15th. Maybe they’ll actually decide my insomnia (didn’t sleep until I took my 2nd xanax at 5am this morning and passed out at 6am) is a REAL FUCKING PROBLEM.